Becky, Who Lives at Home

I have a confession to make. I live at home. Yes as those of you who thankfully follow my blog know, and for those of you who do not. I turned 30 a few months prior.
Now don't get me wrong, I have in fact lived on my own before, many a time. Back at the ripe old age of 14 when I was shifted off to an all girls boarding school 2 hours away. (But that's a whole another experience..) I also left home at 18 to pursue college (laying at beach, drinking 32oz. bottles of malt liquor, partying) in Miami.
I've lived in tents, stayed on friends couches, lived alone, lived with friends, lived with strangers I met on craigslist (really bad idea), lived with boyfriends, and even lived at a hostel for 2 months. All in all, moving around sucks, it starts to become a fucking hassle to say the least. But hey shit happens sometimes, people move, relationships end, people move on in life, period. Often times It may not be when you want them too.
Regardless I really didn't plan on living back at home at 29. I don't think anyone really plans to. It was more of a, "I'll stay here until I'm back on my feet from my latest failed adventure", which then became "I'm pretty broke, and not making enough to live on my own now-a-days, so I can't really move out at this moment, plus my Mom makes a pretty bad ass meatloaf"
And honestly, as much as I want to, I really can't complain living with my Mom.

Now unlike the new film Jeff, Who Lives at Home, nor any other stereo-type of a mid 30's person living with their family or parent(s). I  a.) Do have a full time job b.) have my own room, which I keep clean and tidy. c.) Do not live in the basement and smoke massive amounts of dope all day while playing video games d.) Have my own car  and e.) I contribute to household expenses and chores.

I don't plan on being here forever, nor want to. No offense Mom. But, for now, it just works. The truth is, times are tough. The economy sucks, and nothing is 100% guaranteed anymore. I've watched a lot of friends earn their bachelors and master's degree to find there are no jobs in their desired fields, while they are piled with heavy student loan bills and end up moving back home. I've also had friends do extremely well in their chosen career paths for a number of years, to find out that have been layed off, or their company filed for bankruptcy, leaving them with large debts, and zero savings. Back at home they go. Sometimes its just a between period while people figure shit out and save some fucking money.

Maybe that's where I am. I think people have a stigma about us over 25 people living at home, and yes I do know plenty of people who live at home and don't do shit. But think about it, its a great way to save money and figure out where and how you're going to get there without stressing about the rent being due. (I always think of that movie "Go") I have a "safe place" to come home to everyday knowing that my roommates will not have been evicted while I was at work, nor a boyfriend "needing time alone to re-think things, can you please give me the key, thank you." I don't have to worry about my roommate in my room while I am not there, having a little shopping trip in my closet and not telling me about it. Or worry about my roommate having a keg party on a Wednesday night and me just wanting to sleep before I have to wake up and go to work at 7am the next morning.

I think I am very lucky to have that "safe place" to return to, as I know unfortunately in this world many people do not have that. I am very grateful for this, even if it's living with Mom.
Sure I don't have the freedom as I did living on my own, which in hindsight is kind of good for me right now. It gives me a direction to focus on, and can also say to the dude at the bar "Sorry, you really can't come home with me... no, really." Avoiding the oh so terrible awkward situations in the morning.

Anyways, again this is just my view of things. I know some of my friends right now who do live at home and hate it, but do not have a choice as of this moment. Think George Costanza's parents on "Seinfeld" But I know, when I am ready which will hopefully be soon, I will move on to somewhere great.... even if it's in an RV in my Mom's driveway

"I cannot work with bitches" - Alber Ebaz

Alber Ebaz, creative director for French powerhouse label Lanvin, had perfectly described one of the main reasons why I left the fashion industry.

"I always say I cannot work with bitches; they block my creativity." - Alber Ebaz via Style.com

Though, he is in the wrong industry if he hates to work with bitches, it's nice to hear that someone else feels the same way I do at times. I guess I just hate working with bitches period. Doesn't matter what industry.

photo via Style.com/print

Orly Shani - My Fashion Star

I did agree to watch NBC's newest fashion reality show, Fashion Star, with my former boss, (who actually tried out for the series, but her lack of drama in her life and broken English didn't make her a "fashion star") Anyways, while I do love the concept of up and coming fashion designers collections being showcased in front of millions of people each week, and especially the concept of being bought by either 3 major fashion retailers (especially H&M). But alas, not all can be perfect can it? I am majorly confused about the "mentors"... and they seem to contradict a lot of what the fashion buyers purchase.
And contestant Oscar, well Oscar, who was clearly picked not for his gaudy fashion design ability, but for his stero typical "Latin-diva- queen" personality. Hey every reality show needs some drama right?

And there comes Orly Shani, what can I say? What can't I say? She is just brilliant, and her designs are fucking amazing. If she doesn't win this, then well, fuck that. She'll be a super star no matter what. Orly's designs are unique, yet practical, sleek and modern. I love it!!! If I wasn't such a broke bitch I would have run to Sak's and bought that zipper skirt! But rent is due soon :( But I wouldn't mind being trendiest homeless person!

Photos: Nbc.com

Lisa Frank!!!

I don't know why I started obsessively thinking about Lisa Frank stationary and school supplies for some reason, which then prompted me to wander into the moldy garage and start rummaging through old boxes I have kept around for some unknown reason and came across a big box of some of my old school work....(Most of it doodles and my name in different writing styles) That's not the point though, the point is that I had a fucking Lisa Frank trapper keeper!!! Folders of neon colored penguins all surrounding a polar bear! notebooks of pink and purple cats surrounded by sunflowers!!!   I know I may sound really enthusiastic about it, but I forgot how cool her shit was. She was way ahead of her time, and really had a way of making normal animals come to life. 

I always wondered if Lisa Frank was a real person. Thanks to google I did find this little bit of info about her which I thought was pretty cool thanks to Wikipedia

"Frank founded the company in 1979 at the age of 24, and her success resulted from her sticker line. The company's headquarters is in Tucson, Arizona, and is easily visible because of the bright hearts, stars, and music notes decorating the side of the building. There is currently a quarterly magazine also named Lisa Frank."

Crop Tops & Apple Sauce

photos: nymag.com

On The Road...

Once again after a brief hiatus, I am back to my blog, which I have been terrible about updating!!
Spent some much needed relaxation in my 2nd home, Miami that is. It's kind of nice to just disappear sometimes.

Any who enough about my vacation. I am super stoked to see the new movie "On The Road" with über hottie Garrett Hedlund, Kristen Stewart (I pray she doesn't awkwardly bite her lips and push her hair behind her ear while looking at her shoes) and Sam Riley.
3 years ago a friend loaned me a copy of Jack Kerouac's "On the Road" and I'll admit, I was hesitant about reading it, definitely misconceptions about that time period. But I thought, what the hell. I had a huge fine at the library and I felt like reading something anyways. I read it in 2 days.

I usually am not a fan of movie adaptations of films, (How many times have you heard "The book was so much better!") but with some good exceptions like "The Help" and "Girl with the Dragon Tattoo" I am certainly curious about this film as well, and take it as it is, a film, not a book.

Can't wait til this summer man!